Writing, or something like it...

Its been all of a month, and where am I on my writing? Nowhere. Serious, I would use the word Dead to describe it. Very Dead. So Dead I'm sure you wont even be seeing any form of Vampireism, Zombieism or any other form of Undeadism bringing it back from the grave. I have taken the time to start journaling, and working on a couple personal projects to try to get a small spark of life back into my writing, So far, its been all in vain. Depression has set in. Lethargy is weighting me down to the point where I barely get out of bed. The few times I do? I manage to sit in front of the computer in a zombie-like trance letting mindless computer games eat away at even more brain activity. Some people would call this a funk. I call this the lack of any motivation to cling to life. I hit the point where I DON'T CARE. I dont care that I am supposed to make myself sit in front of the computer everyday to write. In fact, I have stop caring whether I get out of bed, or even eat. So tell me, would you still make yourself write through that? I feel like I'm supposed to. In fact, my life seems to be fenced in with the things I am "supposed" to do, but who makes these rules? If you can write through the depressive weight holding you to your bed, bravo. Today I am making a rule that says I don't have to.

Yes, I am back to my usual writing antics. After taking a break to "marinate" a few story ideas for the new year and to manically rearrange the placement of my desk (the location was definitely blocking my creative flow.), I am now comfy, cozy, and already pecking away at a new Young Adult trilogy I started with the aims of using my teenage brother as a guinea pig for testing the story once finished (YA being a weak genre in my writing repertoire). If I decide to release the stories for anything other than his eyes it will be under a pen name, since my usual stories are a little too mature for young people looking for like stories among my other projects. By the by, I say the word "projects" with the full assumption that they WILL BE COMPLETED (New Year Resolution Speaking). I have three stories targeted to be finished this year. The first in my main fantasy series I will be focusing on, a side project which will be a urban fantasy with a super hero, and the first story in my YA trilogy featuring elves, sorcerers, vampires, unicorns, and any other mythological creature I can feasibly stick in it, per my brothers request. Any other brilliant plot bunnies attacking me will just have to be put in my plot journal this year. I refuse to be sidetracked!

Despite the fact that the image is rather lacking in quality, you will get the point. Large rubber band attached to the back of my chair, kitty playing with it as I sit there and take pictures. Gee, I wonder why no words have been written today.

• Sat, 21:45: finally hit 30k, and met my daily goal. worried my story wont hit my word count goal. off to have a lazy evening. #NaNoWriMo #nanopdx

• Пт, 16:58: darkfables and the blustery day http://t.co/3t69bx17
• Пт, 19:45: for the record, long islands iced tea is not good for #NaNoWriMo productivity. #nanopdx